An Exploration of (My) Faith

As I have shared before with several people and also in this blog, I have struggled with my spiritual life for the past year at least. Lately, though, I have found belief in God itself to be quite a challenge. From beginning to question my beliefs and deconstructing my faith, I have come to a point where the idea of God just does not seem to make sense. But I have not given up, and I have decided to continue this struggle by engaging in conversation with others about questions of faith, spirituality, and belief in God. And, since you know I love podcasts, the product of this will be For Laypeople, By Laypeople.

Let me be clear: I am trying to hold on to God with everything I have. Losing my faith scares me to death. I want to believe in God; but I am struggling to do so. I love the Body of Christ, but I’m tired of sitting in the pews wondering why I’m there if I don’t feel anything, if half the time I’m not sure I believe in any of what the pastor is saying. I find the Christian story so fascinating and beautiful that I can’t get away from it, and I want to believe it and live it with everything I have and am. So bear with me.

I strive to be completely honest about my faith. I think it is important for believers to be open about how difficult belief can be. It is a scary thought, for sure, but there are many of us who have questions but don’t feel like these can be discussed among believers because they may challenge the very foundations of our faith. And so we hide our doubts and avoid our questions in order to fit in. We grow discontent with our spiritual lives and live out a lie, one in which we may ironically find comfort. But I don’t wanna live out a lie, so I will be honest, and I would be honored to get your honesty in return.

While I believe sharing our struggles is beneficial to the body of Christ because there is a lot we can learn from one another, I am hesitant to be this open when I know how some in the community might perceive my struggle. All I can say is there are people who sincerely and constantly yearn after God and can’t seem to find anything or anyone. The process is exhausting and support, rather than reproach, from fellow believers is crucial.

Lastly, I know nobody needs yet another podcast on faith. There are some great (e.g., The Liturgists) and not-so-great podcasts out there, but I think I do need this podcast myself. I need a space where I can talk openly about where my struggles come from, a space where I can engage with different perspectives and learn from them. And while this is a very selfish project, I hope you can find something useful in whatever conversations take place in For Laypeople, By Laypeople.

So, with that, here’s the first episode:

Where to Listen to Your Favorite Podcasts

Many of us live in a world where we are saturated by the media we consume: Netflix, Instagram, Snapchat, Twitter, Spotify, and one of our favorites here at Of Lovers and Fools-the podcast. All of these and more are accessible at any time. It’s an amazing time to be alive.

Yet all these amazing advances in how we digest entertainment and news leave us wondering: “When can I make time for it all?” and “Where can I listen to my favorite podcasts?”

1. Daily Commute

One of the best places to sit back, cruise, and listen to your most recent download, is on the way to work. Tuning into the most recent Radiolab or This American Life, can give you conversation with your coworkers, something to discuss with students, or just get you through the day until you’re back in the car homeward bound.

2. Road Trips

Like #1, just for a lot longer. If you’re like some, listening to music for five hours straight can induce raging migraines, but sitting in silence puts you at risk of drifting to sleep and crashing into the side of a semi.

Instead of letting that happen, why not laugh your way through many of the 3-hour-long episodes of You Made It Weird or The Joe Rogan Experience? At least when you do crash, it’ll be because of your joy and laughter, and not boredom.

3. Train Rides/Airplanes

Where some might opt for an audio book during these tried and true forms of travel, next time you’re delayed try catching up on all those missed episodes of Dear Hank and JohnNerdist has enough back logged interviews with Neil deGrasse Tyson to get you through a 1/3rd of your train ride back home for the holidays.

4. Laundry Day

Nothing passes the time like folding clothes. Nothing makes folding clothes fun like WTF with Marc Maron. Whether you’re folding laundry, hanging clothes on hangers, or staring at underwear drying on a clothesline, a podcast can make the boring tasks and space in between doing things a whole lot more fun.

5. In the Shower

After cleaning your clothes and your room, why not clean yourself. And why not listen to Rob Bell tell you more about the eternal hum of the universe on the Robcast, all while hearing the gentle hum of hot water hit the back of your head. clean your body and enlighten your brain.

Recommended Listening:

  • You Made It Weird with Pete Holmes
  • Robcast
  • The Liturgists Podcast
  • Ask Science Mike
  • Freakonomics Radio