Like an old Sabbath

A few weeks back, I was invited to do special music for the church I’ve been attending since I arrived in Houston. Given that I really had not other performance opportunities in sight, I accepted.

I haven’t played much, and I have honestly felt the void. On Monday, I had an excellent practice session. It was productive and fun—one of those you don’t get all the time. Then on Wednesday, while preparing the piece for Sabbath, I hated my guts because my altissimo register just plain sucked (that’s what practicing is more like on a daily basis).

So even though I generally don’t play music outside of the classical genre, I looked forward to performing once more, to feeling those nerves and the adrenaline, to enjoy being shaken by the beauty of music.

My faith has been faltering; my spirit has struggled with finding purpose, my self-esteem with the ever-challenging demands and expectations of a PhD program. But today, playing for the worship service at the West Houston Seventh-day Adventist Church, I felt fulfilled. Making music, participating in worship, if only for a moment, I was home.

The Sabbath closes and I thank God for a much-needed reminder of who He is even as I am overwhelmed with, not doubt, but questions. And I am grateful for another chance to make and share music. I needed it.

#020 – Natalie Bruzon

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This week on the show: Natalie Bruzon. I had the pleasure of working with her (meaning for her) at The Clocktower, our college’s newspaper. Now, she lives in Orchard, a tiny town somewhere in Nebraska (and where’s Nebraska?), where she works as editor of Antelope County News. A few weeks back she came to Lincoln, so we sat down to talk about her new life, creating community, working for a newspaper, and the upcoming election.

I had a lot of fun producing this episode, and I hope you enjoy our conversation.