I’ve been sick for three days. I think I got the flu, but I am almost fully recovered. So I expect to feel great tomorrow.
On Wednesday night, I began feeling this really awkward pain in my throat going up to my left ear and I knew I would wake up the next day with a sore throat and other symptoms related with the flu.
As a music student, it is never a good time to get sick because I have to stop practicing and might get behind on learning a certain work. But the timing cannot be worse when you get sick two days before a performance.
Since Thursday, I spent a significant part of the day lying in bed so I could recover as soon as possible because I needed to get back into a practice room. But the fever and congestion made me slow and pretty much useless.
If practicing was not an option, at least I could listen to some symphonies I need to get familiar with. However, I felt too tired and fell asleep. By the time I woke up, two symphonies had gone by.
I went outside and instantly felt better. There is truly something magical about getting some sun and fresh air. (Okay, maybe it is not magical but you get the point). I walked over just one mile, and although I felt tired by the end, it really helped my mood.
During this walk, I though about sickness. I could not wait to get better. I wanted to feel like I did a couple days before. I wished to have the same energy and not feel so tired at 10 am.
While I was thinking about all that I would do when I recovered, sin came to my mind. Although seemingly unrelated, the topic had been on my mind thanks to a class I am taking in college this semester. We had been talking about Adam and Eve and how sin entered the world.
Perhaps this is why I thought, How would it feel to be without sin? I know what it feels to not have the flu, so I long to be healthy every time I get sick. I know all the things I could be doing and need to be doing, and I am aware of how sickness keeps me from accomplishing those tasks.
I have no idea what it feels to be sinless. Is sin like a handicap? Could I be doing more, better things if I was not being bogged down by sin?
Adam and Eve were sinless once. They knew how that felt. After they ate the fruit from the tree of knowledge of good and evil, they became aware of their nakedness. As the snake promised, their eyes were opened.
I don’t know how they felt being kicked out of the garden, but I can imagine Adam and Eve wanting, longing to go back to how things were. They had become sick. Things were not so easy now. Sin came with its symptoms.
As I experience the last moments in my recovery from the flu, I think about how it will be when there is no more sin. How will it be to not experiences any headaches from all this meetings and tasks we put in our calendars and planners? What things are we going to do when are lives are no longer congested with materialism, envy and greed?
Right now I am sick. I am a sinner. Thankfully, that is not the end.
“He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” He who was seated on the throne said, “I am making everything new!”
Revelation 21:4,5a (NIV)