I don’t want to write today, but I have to because I decided I was going to write every week. I’m trying to develop something I don’t have: discipline.
Some would say I do because I spent about three hours in a practice room every day playing clarinet. Sometimes, however, I don’t really do it well or at all.
Also, I was supposed to be writing during the week on Mexican politics. It’s been two weeks since I have not done it because I have been finishing some school work and I just did not feel like putting in the work required.
I went to bed last night thinking today I’d write about the fruits of the Spirit. Guess what? I didn’t feel like writing. And I still don’t, but I want to feel accomplished.
Today, I feel far away from my family.
Today, I feel far away from God. I don’t even feel like I can open my Bible right now without feeling so much guilt it would just overwhelm me. I wish I could just add a Bible verse. I am reciting my favorite one in my mind (Joshua 1:9), though.
I know today will pass and tomorrow will be brighter. I’ll be fine and might even forget I felt like this today.
It’s just one of those days. Pardon the cliché.
It is part of the Walk.
In all this, however, I will thank God like the Israelites did even in excruciating pain.
I will thank God because His mercy and love endure forever.
I invited two friends to write for the next two weeks. Although it was not part of the idea, that time might help me get out of where I am at the moment and then be back to write about it.
I’m excited to bring to you two different perspectives in these same space.